Tapping Into The Invisible

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There's an amazing amount of energy endlessly moving around us. We make the choice to label it bothersome or just noise. It's that energy and or message from afar that's arrived to be used as a tool. If you don't use it the next step is for the energy to keep moving through flow. As a Third Dan in Martial Arts we studied Ki energy. It's very real. Learning how to find it and utilize it's presence teaches us to stop trying so hard and use the fuel the universe has sent. Crazy talk right? Ki energy was the tool required for me to break four bricks from a push up position. Building that energy. Trusting its presence. Then letting it explode. Within seconds the bricks of four were now in eight pieces. I'm a firm believer that Ki energy arrives during moments of meditation and or Yoga Nidra. Building a relationship with it has been a journey of respect. It's not going to be there if you don't take care of it. If you abuse it expect it to bite back. Writing and studying the energy by way of awareness is a great place for leaders to grow with it. You can't just suddenly show up and expect greater things. It's learning how to identify how the universe is unstoppable on its path through you. If things aren't going your way. There's a big chance that you're the one blocking the right energy from taking shape on your paths of choice.

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 175

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I love writing inside a forest.  It could be connected to my early years in Montana.  I openly admit to being a tree hugger.  It could also be associated with my Native American spiritual beliefs that say trees and rocks are the greatest storytellers on the planet.  On this podcast I step back to August 1, 2019 and read about so many beautiful things that have happened inside this forest located in south Charlotte, North Carolina.  Once free from the page I looked up and took note of the very forest written about as it appears in my present place of "Now"  Very dark clouds, hard rain, an early morning Fall fog.  But I don't feel the urge to race out into the trees with my writing instrument and paper.  I'm not the only one that does this.  Rather than embrace the rains caused by personal storms we walk away.  Sure I could say I don't want to get wet.  It looks to be a cold day in Carolina.  Why would I want to take a chance on getting sick?  Because it seems like the only thing we talk about or post on social media any more are the great days.  The best smiles.  The moments we've accepted.  Nobody wants to be a Debbie Downer with their changes and challenges and yet on the opposite end of this day could be something we were designed to learn today.  When it happens we'll post it in seconds.  But it's not the full story.  Readers and people standing next to you only got part of it.  My father served our nation in World War II.  In our forty five plus years together he spoke of two things about his days on the battle grounds.  The day he went in and the day he got out.  I never once heard my father talk about the entire story.  Which makes me wonder about how much of our true selves have fallen into the carved out channels and tunnels to never be heard because even though it might not be pretty and smell like roses...  It's just something we've set aside with hopes of forever forgetting.

The Final Page

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We've all been in those meetings where those making decisions put time stamps on unmet expectations.  I'm shocked that society hasn't labeled us the Google generation or The Amazon Prime community.  Both super feed our need of wanting things now.  This makes us want all things delivered the same way.  The idea of being part of a process is time not spent well.  Too much energy and thought went into creating what we believed had the potential of being a success.  But that's not how the real world works.  That time stamp means goals will be met and if there isn't success those in charge of the process are tossed.  Getting back to a life of respecting time is a tough cookie to bite into.  It's not just bosses and coworkers putting you through unheard of amounts of stress, so are your friends and family.  We want answers and end results right now.  The idea of developing a process is out of touch with the times.  I write daily to document the process.  I need that road map to speak to the inner core of this creative journey.  To show it respect as well as gratefulness.  As much as the outside shell demands success the inner voice has to remain in control and trust filled by way of taking a firm grip on the purpose of there being a process.  There are so many choices in today's everyday world that the average traveler has no idea that you have a product.  Not unless you've emptied your pockets and every last cent has been spent on marketing.  Even that isn't enough.  When we shoot for the horizon without a process mistakes will be made.  How many around you accept that?  I've heard it a million times, "We got into the mess and we can get out."  Pretty soon those messes become your image.  Why invest in that?  Getting back to the process.  Painfully it can happen.  The end result may not even be what you envisioned.  Through the process you learned by way of experience which makes creating the light bulb a little easier.  Trust your failures.  Learn from the stumbles.  Unmask your fear filled self and take one more step into the process of success.

Reshaping The Shapeless

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I'm a free form thinker.  I free form writing.  I free form the steps required to endlessly be present in the "Now".  Pretty weird thought right?  It's the kind of thinking that's pushed me away from people.  Learning to live with it has been a journey.  You can't reach up and turn it off.  Being a free form personality is an adventure that has to remain true to the process of daily growth by way of finding adventure in change.  On this podcast I go back three years and locate a note that I penned out to myself.  It was if the inner core of this free form traveler was having to explain to a future self that no matter how reckless a creative mind feels, the reality of being accountable for being a free form thinker is still a vibrant place to plant seeds.  My sister is an out of control Debbie Downer.  I act and react to her methods of conversation by saying things that kind of block the madness from reaching that place we have that tends to bleed when touched wrong.  So I say weird junk in response.  To invite humor or a new path to sink into a thought.  Negative people are always on a mission.  It's an hourly goal to draft weak hearts.  It's almost like they're getting paid by an invisible source of cash and flow.  Free forming the conversation keeps you at a safe distance.  In Tae Kwon Do we spent a lot of time physically and mentally measuring where our comfort zones are.  You can't win a tournament if you're always on the inside.  It's a game of strategy.  So are your relationships with friends and family.  Compassion, forgiveness and trust aren't supposed to hit dangerous levels of emptiness.  Put some free form to work and make sure that line in the sand keeps downers at bay.  People are taking from you everyday.  Here's why.  You let them.  Grow forward and outward.  Build your team wisely.

Sally Kirkland

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Sally Kirkland, BEST Actress Oscar Nominee, Golden Globe winner, Independent Spirit Award winner, LA Film Critics Circle Award winner and veteran of over 200 films. Feisty, hard-working, famously liberal, with the trademark blonde hair, actress Sally Kirkland has certainly made an indelible mark on Hollywood history. Born in New York City, her mother was the fashion editor at Vogue and LIFE magazine. Sally began her career on the off-Broadway circuit and trained under Lee Strasberg. Sally Kirkland is a film, TV, and theater veteran since the 1960's and is probably best known for the film "Anna," for which she garnered the Best Actress Oscar nomination and won the Best Actress Golden Globe, the Independent Spirit Award, and the LA Film Critic's Circle Award. Sally's first director in 1964 was Andy Warhol in "13 Most Beautiful Women." In 1968 she became the first nude actress in American history, "Sweet Eros" by Terrence McNally. Her 220 films also include: "The Sting," "The Way We Were," "Coming Apart," "Cold Feet," "Best of the Best," "Revenge," "JFK," "ED TV," "Bruce Almighty", "Coffee Date" and "Archaeology of a Woman". In the past couple of years she has starred in "Buddy Solitaire", "Gnaw" and "The Most Hated Woman in America" co-starring with Melissa Leo and Peter Fonda. And coming out soon, she has starred in "Sarah Q", "Cuck", "Invincible" and "The Talking Tree". She was nominated for Best Actress in a TV movie by the Hollywood Foreign Press for "The Haunted- A True Story."

Her television credits include: guest starring on "Criminal Minds," recurring on "Head Case" and "the Simple Life." She guest starred on "Resurrection Blvd," and in the TV movie, "Another Woman's Husband." Sally had a recurring role on "Felicity". She starred on the NBC movie, "Brave New World." She starred in the TV movie, "Song of Songs" and was a series regular on the TV show "Valley of the Dolls." She also starred in the TV movie, "The Woman Who Loved Elvis." She had a recurring role as Barbara Healy in the original "Roseanne" series. She starred in the TV movie, "Heatwave" and recurred as Tracy on "Days of Our Lives." Sally is also an exhibited painter, poet, renowned acting coach and ordained minister in the Church of The Movement of Spiritual Inner Awareness (MSIA).

Treat Williams

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Treat Williams has been a renowned actor on Broadway, in films, and on television for more than 30 years. Along the way he has been seen in such greats as Hair, A Streetcar Named Desire, Mulholland Falls, Deep End of the Ocean, and Woody Allen's Hollywood Ending. It was the WB television series Everwood, however, that brought him to the attention of audiences everywhere. He has received much critical acclaim and several award nominations for his portrayal of the endearing Dr. Andy Brown, a surgeon who moved his family from New York City to a small town in Colorado after his wife died.

Williams was named after his ancestor Robert Treat Payne (1731-1814), one of the men who signed the Declaration of Independence. Williams was born on December 1, 1951, in Rowayton, Connecticut. He grew up there attending prep-school before he went on to Franklin and Marshall College in Pennsylvania. While there he joined the Fulton Repertory Theatre Troupe in Lancaster. He thoroughly explored his love of acting while part of the Troupe and so after graduation he moved to New York City to try acting as a full-time career. Soon after his move, in 1973, he made his Broadway debut in the musical Grease. He started out as an understudy to John Travolta but later ended up taking over the role of Danny Zuko himself. His plan to enter the New York acting scene began with great success. He was later seen in productions of Over Here, a play that featured the Andrews Sisters, The Pirates of Penzance, and Oleanna.

Williams decided to try his hand at film acting and soon after made his film debut in the farcical movie The Ritz in 1976. He played a private detective who was tracking a mobster through ridiculous situations. It was in 1979's Hair, however, that Williams caught the public's eye. He was nominated for a Golden Globe award for New Star of the Year for his portrayal of the character Berger, the leader of a group of hippies. Around the same time, Williams, who has always been interested in singing as well as acting, formed a rock band with Kevin Kline, Rex Smith, Peter Riegert, and Mary Elizabeth Mastrantonio called Crime & Punishment.

Practicing Badly Doesn't Make It Right

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One of my thrills as a daily writer is putting things on paper in an extremely difficult to understand hidden speak way.  Basically meaning nobody's gonna figure out the structure of the thoughts and why they were brought to the page.  Today we go back three years to an obviously out of control moment of hidden speak where the writer himself is confused until he reads the sentence over and over.  We're all very guilty of doing things over and over again.  I think the parental figures put us on that path because how many times were you told to keep going back until you got it right.  We do that a lot in this everyday world.  When in question we've made it extremely easy to go back to go.  And do so until our perfectionist self is satisfied or completely tired of spinning his or her wheels.  Growing through the ranks of martial arts to third degree black belt status we were constantly reminded of learning how to get control of what's right and stop focusing on what's wrong. You cannot truly achieve if everything you're doing is a repeat.  Growing beyond this personal challenge takes years of awareness.  The physical understanding and forgiveness of accepting mistakes then moving beyond them.  Like anything else its extremely easy to fall off the wagon.  Get back up.  Get on the trail and find peace and not pieces.  Be aware of where you are in the present and know how you're going to get into the shape of a new tomorrow.  If the moment feels like last week.  You're practicing badly.  With time you'll begin to recognize the habits and bend things toward being right.  Take notes.  Writing each day is an incredible time saver not taker.

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 174

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Oh you know how we are. Those people that live by the power of a written word. I've always been connected to the book. I just didn't make it as public as I do today. It became my calling to stop hiding. My preacher friends or those extremely close to the message warned me of the changes and how those around us will have opinion. On this podcast I step through that learning hoop by opening a conversation based not on religion but rather spirituality. I love Jim Carey's quote, "I'm a Jesus freak. I'm Buddhist. I'm Hindu. I'm everything!" The quote I laid into the veins of a living tree this past summer paints the image of my journey as being a spiritual man that doesn't where religion on his sleeve. Try that line out with the Sunday teachers. You know whats funny? The thought is supported. I expected friction. I was letting down the calling. Nope not really. Turning your gifts of life into a conversation that can help free someone from depression is your community. You don't know it all but you do know something. The joy you feel in your walk and way through creating things is actually a brilliant word to be heard. Don't hide your love for what you do. Being a cat lover helps heal others. Running at five in the morning will bring peace to those that would like to do it better. Your language on the street is yours to keep. Grow forward and outward. Remove the labels from your sleeves.

Nobody's Listening

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We're all guilty of seeing those on top or bottom and coming up with our own story lines.  The other day while talking with a Preacher she said something that caught me off guard.  She said "Well I have to be in church tomorrow.  I don't know why.  Nobody comes to listen."  Many times we forget how human Preachers, Rock Stars, Actors and Comedians really are.  Just because they look to be at the top of their game we forget about their personal feelings and experiences.  The world of social media has made us available to always talk but how often do we arrive to listen?  To activate?  To change?  To accept the challenges without defeating yourself or others?  The term Ghosting is very real and is extremely damaging on relationships.  We've become a community of people that don't announce a departure we just walk off the stage.  On this podcast we talk about how we assume if you aren't talking about what might be weighing you down then life must be great, incredible and successful.  Mom used to tell us to never let someone close to your heart.  It's going to be injured even more.  Then one day people learn you aren't so perfect.  Some embrace it while others move forward in search of another energy.

I'm Not A Sales Person

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Being a daily writer for twenty five years has taught me how to trust beyond the moment of putting words into place.  I see words like I see the required belts in martial arts.  You don't wake up on any given Sunday a black belt or greater.  It's a journey that requires discipline and structure.  You need to make mistakes.  You need to learn forgiveness.  In martial arts we endless trained on falling.  Forward, sideways, on our backs and more.  Falling happens in the everyday world.  Have you learned how to do it without injury?  That's what I see daily writing as.  I fall into the blank white pages every morning at 4:30.  On this podcast we leap back three years to October 6, 2016.  The writer/author was extremely religious.  It was a Thursday so I can't attach it to a Sunday sermon.  In the art of falling I'd say he was using the positive influence of a higher energy to help free him from a storm.   The writer never exposes the reason for the mindset only that it's what was moving through him in the moment.  Learning to identify your mind guard should be a daily awareness.  Who and what do you surround yourself with that's dedicated their purpose and plan to protect your fall?  Being truthful and transparent to yourself without judgement is a beautiful first step.  It's when you rely on other people to protect you that time in its own way will create the invisible crack leading to the valley floor.  It starts with self.  Build your empire by creating words that become sentences which develop paragraphs.  We all have stories.  How do you bring yours to the surface?  The journey requires falls.

Gathered Leaves

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It occurred to me.  I've been a daily writer of three pages or more for twenty five years.  Everyday!  4:30 am.  A lot of giving trees have been used to keep these pages locked in forward emotion.  Each page is a leaf.  I say that because during so many conversations with published authors we take the time to laugh about how the words we find on paper really aren't ours.  It came from the trees.  Writers are brought in to scratch the blizzard white off the canvas.  A great friend asked mentioned to me yesterday how much he liked listening to the beginning and end of The Choice podcast.  It's when I read from the daily writing he doesn't care for.   I get it.  Even I sit there trying to figure out what the man holding the writing instrument is trying to bring forward.  That's what makes it fun!  If we always knew what we were thinking and talking about life would be boring.  Daily writing isn't penning out a love letter or jotting down poetry.  It's about whatever!  It's how the universe is moving through you at that very second.  Stream thinking.  It doesn't have to make sense.  The best part is nobody has to understand it.  Being an artist and trusting your artist self means making yourself always available to participate with something you weren't a part of until you stepped outward and joined the amazing energy around you.  On this podcast the subject is storms.  We'll spend weeks watching hurricanes slowly pacing across the face of the ocean but never find reason to pay close attention to our own storms until they hit.  Learning how to identify the first breath of wind that creates your storm.  How to keep your storm off shore.  What did you learn from this storm that will keep you stronger the next storm?  Just a thought that fell from a giving tree.  Like a leaf.  Daily writing.

Progress And Process

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You do know that progress can't happen without process. Right? I hate Google. It's taught everybody to quit trying. We leap onto the search engine and let it work for us. Now there's Google Assistant. My neighbor is constantly telling the app to turn on the lights, lower the volume on the TV and play a different song. Progress and process. They're like an old married couple that bicker at each other and the world looks at it thinking there's gonna be a knock down battle for the heavy weight championship. But in the end they work it out. They see eye to eye. They realize how important a little friction is inside a continuation. I'm a Podcaster. Been doing it since 2012. I think it's destroying a lot of broadcasting careers. Fewer and fewer people are reaching for the TV and Radio towers. I hear it from them, "I don't need it. I'm gonna make it in podcasting." I don't fight them. Good! Go for it! Progress and process means you need direction. Leaders that have the courage to say, "You suck. Try it this way." That stuff shapes you. No matter what business you're in being a real leader can't be handed to you. I'm a 3rd degree black belt. People think those three stripes on that dark belt are my greatest achievement. Not even close. Progress and process. My biggest and most memorable part of the journey sits in the closest. My uniform worn on the day I dropped my block and an opponent planted his foot in my face. Blood everywhere. I've never washed the uniform. Progress and process. Passion doesn't kick into action until you have failed not once but a hundred times. Drive is mastered by the willingness to endlessly stick your neck out there and get your head chopped off. I've been blessed to talk with a lot of people of fame that were labeled overnight sensations. In our conversation they calmly said, "If people only knew the real story." Progress and process.

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 173

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There are multiple things they don't prepare us for in high school or college.  One of them being the physical act of watching your parents fade.  Making it even more difficult is being two thousand miles from the soil that raised your ambitions and dreams.  Therefore you rely on family members to help bring peace to all that is changing.  I find it difficult to locate the right words to say.  I'm a writer.  It should could easy right?  Through several layers and painful failures I've learned the goal everyday is to do nothing more than make room for my sister the caretaker,  To listen.  Make no decisions to correct and or attempt to help lead.  Just listen.  She doesn't want to hear about God.  Wants nothing to do with the valley floors shaped everyday on my journey.  The mission is to just listen.  Having patience with those who are taking care of those fading.  On this podcast we talk about her side while attempting to explain this side.  Care Givers are angels.  They've answered the command and calling.  Then the higher source of energy says, "Your part in this process of fading is to be the structure that holds up those face first in the struggle.  You'll hear things and experience emotions that have never been laid out before.  Just be there.  Let them know they've got support.  No matter what time of day the phone rings or the text message chimes.  That's your part in the fade."  The circle of life and all it's chapters.  Don't fight the journey.  Listen...

Free Form Thinking

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I've stood on many live stages. Lectured in front of several thousand. Been in that place where being on your feet is the expectation. Especially when it comes to being on the radio. Free Form thinking has always been part of the adventure. Some call it adlib or improv. Even with those you go into a project or idea with something somewhat prepared. Free Form thinking is right now in the moment. Ten seconds ago you were sipping on coffee and now you're writing or talking about subjects that honestly have nothing to do with anything you do. It's a fun exercise done daily. Make up story lines on the spot. If there's a pause for thought? Ten point deduction. On this podcast I talk about how we all put ourselves on this thinking path and countless times we hit walls that paint a completely different image. From being put on the spot in business meetings to hanging out with friends and family. When the ball is handed to you or you leap into a conversation because the feeling seems right then boom biff pow you're down and out. A lot of podcaster's choose this route. It makes it more about the moment. Real, vibrating and unexpected. In the end the goal is to get a reaction and or just accepted. I Free Form my daily writing but never present it outside the book until I've allowed it to collect a lot of dust. 100% of all my radio shows are pre-recorded. Once you get used to being a Free Form artist doesn't guarantee the end result is going to be agreed upon by all parties involved. I totally devour the inside of my mouth while sitting in meetings. I hold myself back from participating until all involved have thrown in their patterns of the process. As a creative mind whose paint brushes are sitting in several colors at a time, Free Form is a huge strength. So is discipline. Great ideas hit us every hour. In our heads they sound so perfect! Then we speak. Oh Oh... Be aware of your Free Form thinking.

One Quarter Unconditional

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We've all filled out job applications.  Be it at the place of business or on Zip Recruiter or Indeed.  The part of the application that drives me totally insane is where it asks about your ethnic. I always want to check the box titled other.  I'm half hope and one quarter unconditional.  That describes my walk and way more than the color of my skin.  Hope is a halfway word.  The return of the investment doesn't guarantee a better pay off.  You'll never see me leaning on it.  With hope the universe will deliver.  Hope?  Maybe it's because in my world the glass is always half full never half empty.  Hope is the same way.  It places so many people in a position of well maybe next time.  I hoped and it didn't deliver.  Another word I can't stand is unconditional.  That thing is thrown around so much it reminds you of a football game on Sunday.  They say dogs are unconditional.  That I believe.  Humans?  The biggest test?  The next time you land on a television show or movie on Netflix or Hulu watch it unconditionally.  You can't tune out!  You're unconditional.  How about the friend or family member that promises their unconditional support?  Three in the morning comes all too fast and you need to hear their calming unconditional spirit, "Dude.  Call me after the day gets started.  Maybe tonight after work."  What's my ethnic?  Half hope and one quarter unconditional.  Right away that tells someone in your circle exactly who you are and how much they can take.  Opps you've used up the only love I have.  Gotta hit Walmart so I can stock up for tomorrow.  Not being a jerk!  It's honesty, awareness and willingness.  It's not that you aren't loving, forgiving and understanding.  It's being upfront with who you are.  When you hit empty those you're sharing your energy with will come up with horrid names for not being 125 percent.  Half hope and one quarter unconditional.

Building Your Now

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The title alone sounds like a lot of change is required.  Quick run!  Step free of the moment.  Building your NOW means what?  Facing your monsters?  Not really.  Those things are in a past you can't change.  Fearing the continued reconstruction of the corporate world?  Totally out of your hands so why waste the energy?  Awareness is a tough cookie to bite into.  Most of us openly admit that where we presently stand is ok but it's not the best.  We settle.  Only to somehow someway always get caught up in circles of other job haters and or family members endlessly pointing fingers.  My sister and I struggle with that.  She likes to compare.  She said he said.  I disconnect.  Whether it's on the phone of text.  I disconnect.  No goodbyes or see you laters.  Being someone who lives in the presence of NOW requires focus on what you're currently in control of.  Other people's opinions are not in your shape shifting abilities.  When negativity starts to unwrap it's mighty arms around your participation in the conversation.  Walk away.  You're going to lose a lot of friends!  Most personal relationships are based solely on your commitment to listen.  It's what neighbors do.  We listen and offer the ever so soft, "Well bless your heart."  Within two hours your heart has sunk to a new low and your communication buddy is off at the movie, shopping or having dinner with happy people.  Once a week I take a long walk with a very good friend.  Jazzie the wonder dog at my side and my friend hit the green way to talk about nothing but the present.  The NOW.  No past.  No future you can't predict or try to shape.  The NOW.  Making yourself available for what is right now clears your system of choice.  It brings a fresh field of rebirth to a creative mind.  I can't believe I just wrote that.  80% of anyone reading right now just said to themselves, "I'm out of here.  I'm not creative."  Your NOW.  Embrace it by being truthful to where you stand.  Let it grow into your moment.

Joker

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I attended the world premiere of the new film Joker.  First Joaquin Phoenix takes the term mind blowing to a new level of blowing up your mind.  This isn't a movie review but maybe a new step for viewers and listeners to be more aware of their personal reviews.  You can't help but see pieces of your self in this character.  We're all carrying luggage.  Where you set it aside is determined by a choice.  How it's picked back up can come incredibly unexpected and it feels like you've not gone anywhere.  Forget that Joaquin is playing a DC comic book villain.  This film is about mental abuse, sickness and distance caused by a society that continues to drop off its luggage in corners assumed gone forever.  I grew up in a world where my grandmother and aunt endlessly tried to put my brother in an institution.  That's what they did in the 60's!  Mom wanted nothing to do with that plan or purpose.  She stayed true to him faithfully, unconditionally and spiritually.  She didn't try to hide anything.  There are several shapes and shades of what mental illness is and there are experts that can help unlock the mountain standing in your way.  On this podcast I do something I rarely attempt.  I don't ever read from the current day we're standing in.  Time has taught me how to digest.  I write about the Joker experience by way of being a daily writer and how important it is to build on that platform.  Joaquin called it his joke book.  We all have one of those its called Facebook, Twitter and Instagram.  On the outside,  as a reader, a lot of stuff shows up on the face of my computer that may have come out of you as a way of releasing.  What are you truly trying to say.  We can't hear your inflection by way of written words.  Joker.  You're gonna be a different person when you leave the theater.  You're gonna look not only into your own heart but from that day forward the way you laugh in pubic or while alone.  It will put you in places you thought were hidden away in boxes forever.  Don't be afraid to reach for help.