Friday, August 31, 2018

Counting Down The Days To The Harvest


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Transitioning from a closet Christian to a public relationship with a loving God isn't as easy as many leaders of the spiritual journey make it.  I know in my heart why so many looked at me with eyes from afar because just like broadcasting everybody thinks they can do it.  Oh God!  I got this!  A couple of months under your belt as a believer and you're ready to serve.  To you personally it's a brilliant new beginning.  It's a day of celebration.  Then one skipped Sunday leads to a second which then creates the story called: It just got in my way.  I hear it all the time on the streets of make me a radio person today!  I can only speak on behalf of my forty years in radio when I say there are 98% more people that walk away from that spur of the moment dream then those who physically attain a position inside a control room sharing well shaped thoughts for passerby listeners.  Religion and radio are hard work.  It's almost like they're twin brothers from different mothers.  What you share on either stage has the unique ability to lead people.  I still have air checks of my 14 year old self spinning music during the disco days.  I was committed to the industry like it was a religion.  Today's podcast jumps into the center of the ring.  How do you push your passion beyond the day of doubt.  I write everyday.  I don't expect anyone to pull off that discipline.  In being open with my atmosphere I'm introduced to one thought.  I am not who I was yesterday.  I am a new beginning everyday.  In living this mindfully I realize that instead of expecting a harvest, we learn to countdown the days to the harvest.  Did I know as that lame butt teenager in Billings, Montana that I'd be still doing his dream 40 years later?  No.  I do know that he never put a time limit on his dream.  He knew how to accept the bumps in the road and turn them into lessons his heart would learn to trust.  I am not who I was yesterday.  I am a new beginning everyday.  It opens your heart, your mind, your path.  Your day of victory is every morning when your eyes open.  Be blessed that you got to wake up.   

Thursday, August 30, 2018

Bringing Together Left And Right


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This is the way I think.  My writing hand is on the right.  What does the left hand bring to the reasons of being creative before the sun rises?  Paying attention to all that's required by the opposite side of your progress is a very interesting walk toward understanding how we need both left and right to accomplish a mission.  I'm amazed at how each tool reaches beyond balance but physically make it possible for our stronger side to bring forward its reason and purpose.  While writing the land hand supports the book the words are being put in.  Connected to a wrist and forearm it sends signals to the other side as if to say "Push as hard as you want to get those voices in your head out.  This book isn't going anywhere."  Look at the way we type and or text.  Both sounds are incredible music to my creative soul in the way that communicating with another person or thing is a connection.  How did we get to this day?  It's layers of experiences.  Like your left and right side the view couldn't be predicted but when it arrived all that you are and were seems to paint a point of balance.  On those days where you're extra tired and feel the least about wanting to go to work or do household chores, those are the moments when your body performs it's best work.  You're aware of where you are.  Absolutely it's tough to bring something forward but in the end you'll feel so much better about it.  In this podcast I talk about walking through such clouds and how to achieve a greater step by openly admitting that today can be changed if we exert more positive then negative.  I mean those bad vibes are already focused on the steps why not allow it to touch the opposite side of your attempt to make great out of a bad moment?   Even if you're having a brilliant time allow there to be an appearance from the other side.  That's where I usually take chances and find it to be more acceptable when I fail.  Look at your left and right hand.  Watch each of their abilities.  Study their performance during times when you think one is being lazy.  The view isn't shocking but more rewarding by way of respecting more of who you are in that body. 

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 122

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I recently sat staring into a swarm of Dragonflies.  My studies of Native American Spirituality opened the soul I carry to what it meant to be in such a moment.  To become aware of falsehoods, deceit and illusions.  I could've easily stopped there but I wanted to bring God into the picture.  Dragonflies in that shape of study represents transformation.  As a writer and endless thinker it was now time to blend the two messages.  But it had to be done by way of not the human looking at the Dragonfly but the Dragonfly looking into your eyes.  What would it see, feel, imagine and quite possibly learn? What types of energy are you generating that would inspire or warn the Dragonfly of there being possible danger?  I'm amazed by the enormous amount of pictures posted on the social networks how and what influences us to move in any direction.  If a Dragonfly were to watch what you post could they identify who you are and what you're teaching them to become? This is not judgement but rather awareness.  The other day an interviewer asked me, "How would you best describe Arroe Collins?"  Without a breath of air in between us I instantly shot back, "Arroe doesn't know.  Twenty four years of daily writing and not one string of understanding comes to terms with who and what the purpose and plan are designing.  The goal is to grow everyday.  It's to be open for constant change.  I don't mind being different in all aspects.  I accept weird. I'm better at being bad.  I practice it every chance I get.  The more I practice bad the better I get at becoming better.  Being in a bad mood is every reason to study behavior.  Having a bad radio show opens my imagination to identifying what I was trying that was new and out of tune to my habits.  Asking an artist a bad question doesn't represent bad show prep but maybe I wasn't truly listening to the conversation and it come into play by being out of place. Do I know what the Dragonflies were telling me that day at Andrew Jackson State Park? Falsehoods, deceit, illusions? Was God introducing me to a transformation? Being aware of all things evolving opens your heart and mind.  Trusting it sets you on a path of victory.   

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Terrence J


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This season will feature Diddy, Tiffany Haddish, Michael B. Jordan, Jamie Foxx, DJ Khaled, Jason DeRulo, Haqq twins, Jay Pharoah, Utkarsh Ambudkar, Ta’Rhonda Jones, Karrueche Tran, Christina Milian, Amanda Seales, Nicole Byer, T.I., Lauren London and Steelo Brim. Season two’s stars will have to face twice the games, double the risk and more surprises than ever before. In each episode, six of the country’s funniest comics will throw down to make sure their team’s celebrity is the one who wins the show. Whether that means playing the games or getting downright dirty by throwing some social media shade, it all makes for one of TV’s most talked-about shows. It all ends with the loser having to ‘Face Their Truth’ by revealing their dirty little secrets, all while hooked up to a lie detector test.

From hosting to acting in worldwide box office hit films including Think Like a Man, Think Like a Man Too and The Perfect Match to penning his first literary work, The Wealth Of My Mother’s Wisdomand all the credentials in between, Terrence J, a New York native, has shown skilled versatility among a vast number of different arenas. After seven years of hosting BET’s 106 & ParkTerrence is one of the most recognizable faces in Hollywood as the former co-anchor of the international news program E! News and as a producer and host for Miss USA 2016 and Miss USA 2017. Most recently, he hosted the 2017 MTV Movie & TV Awards Festival, the 2017 MTV Woodies and MTV’s Are You the One? 
 

Hearing The Command By Way Of Being Transparent

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I wish there was a microphone that was strong enough to record the voices in your head and heart.  The problem is we'd turn it away from ourselves and put focus on others.  Being transparent has been a hot button for a couple of seasons. Companies throw it out like a worm on a hook.  I hear it in car commercials to banking leaders trying to convince potential clients to switch over to their side of the financial tree. In this podcast I ask a simple dull roar question, "Are you being transparent with yourself?"  In this age of identity do we have the courage to expose the experience required to get you where you're presently standing? I once got in trouble for being too transparent with future Broadcasters.  I was told to dream with them not create what could become a nightmare. I get it. I was once there. I've lived this radio path for 39 years. That doesn't make me an expert. Only a participant. Several chapters into my personal experiences I wish someone of greater experience would've said,"That decision you're about to make isn't wise. Rethink the path."  Here's what happens in moments like that. Those voices in the head and heart shout out, "Mind your own business!"  This isn't a knock on bosses but most decision makers are more interested in their success rather than grasping onto the reins of reality.  Multi tasking has rotted the fields of preparation then delivery.  Not an expert.  I'm only a participant.  Transparent. I just told my inner self to continue dreaming. We're going to locate victory. Anybody can do the jobs we bring to life everyday.  From radio to preaching to driving for Uber. Fulfilling that empty spot in your soul requires a personal act of energy that's going to feel like Mark Walberg in a war movie. He gets up. He knows his mission.  You heard the command. It's alive inside of you everyday.  Stop yourself from walking away.  Know your mission.  Be transparent.

Friday, August 24, 2018

Where Is Your Faith


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I'm bothered by the title of this blog.  What is faith in a society addicted to winging it?  You only live once right?  On my radio show today I did a break over an intro that questioned the title of The Talking Heads song Once In A Lifetime.  I said it doesn't exist.  In 2018 we will empty our bank accounts to make it twice in a lifetime.  So says the man that's seen KISS nine times, Bruce Springsteen four times and The Eagles three times. Those are once in a lifetime performances designed to become part of your thread.  As we weave ourselves through the adventures of life the notes taken pretty much become long gone thoughts.  What we crossed during the storm is re-thought not written to better serve today.  As a daily writer, I'm able to easily return to any day and year for the past 24.  I'm amazed at how many thoughts tossed down on paper are physically speaking to my present day.  On May 18, 2016 I asked the question, "Where is my faith?" Faith in what?  Radio?  God?  Family?  The price of rice?  The writing didn't go any deeper.  On this podcast I walk through the paragraphs leading to the questions and you'll see how writing, creating, posting thoughts on social media or hosting a physical conversation on the phone, we all face change.  Not when fate's in the mood.  It's every moment of every day.  We aren't designed to agree with it.  We never truly have the time to accept it.  The American Dream isn't dead.  We just keep changing our minds. 

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Humbled By Unconditional


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Humbled by unconditional.  That's a pretty hefty road to follow.  In an age of digital process there are too many outlets to serve self.  Each morning while the Carolina sun is rising my dog and I take a walk.  While she's sniffing every plant on the planet I'm softly saying out loud my intentions for the day.  It is my intention to walk into this moment of now to create radio that reaches people.  It is my intention in this moment of now to create commercials that bring joy to a listeners life.  It is my intention.  I'm humbled by every element that shapes the path that Jazzie and I walk on knowing that the next movement is far more unpredictable then the strings that guide a hurricane.  Humbled by unconditional.  No matter what... Unconditional serves.  That's extremely difficult to digest when times are tight and sickness is too easy to catch.  No matter how dark doubt is the idea of knowing something is unconditional paints on both sides of the artist's canvas.  That of hope.  That of fear.  On this podcast I ask "Who do you trust?  Who do you serve?  How important is self while placed in the center of so much to be grateful for?  It seems like an automatic to keep missing the truer moments of now.  Your intention today is what?  Does your boss know that you serve a greater power?  What if they did know?  I wrote a piece in my journals the other day that asked,"If I am living a life of being present in my now, does God know of my past and future?"  Humbled by unconditional.       

Wednesday, August 22, 2018

The Turning Point


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We all endure it.  Most of the time it's not by choice.  The turning points in our life are moments when the next decision made is set free because it opens the path for you to live a new way upon a path you might not recognize.  My sister's heart attack this week was a huge turning point in her life.  Her victories to this point were all centered around being sober for a couple of decades.  Now she has a new page to add to that journey.  Not only is she a survivor of setting alcohol aside but now she's been infected and affected by her body breaking down in places that could've taken her life.  Something as simple as adding God to your daily diet can be a huge turning point.  I didn't realize that going public with my spiritual walk would cost me lifelong friends.  For many it's not easy to be around religious minded individuals.  A good friend said it's because my openness makes them feel guilty about their dammed up emotions and expressions.  I'm not out to save anyone.  I'm not going to lay my hands on you and shout, "Heal!"  This totally goes against the majority of the belief systems.  We're always supposed to be ready to reel in new fish.  That's no my turning point.  I'm not even new at this Good Word way of living.  I've been strong with my faith the entire way.  I just didn't talk about it.  It was the way we lived back home in Montana.  The official family rule book vividly stated that we don't discuss politics and religion.  To this day my mother won't touch the subjects and she's a strong woman of God!  None of us are as empty as we feel.  We only act like we're blind.  Your eyes hold the elements that make up the world.  When you're asked to clean your desk and leave your place of business that's a turning point.  Falling in love is a turning point.  So is the act of setting aside a blog and stepping outside to enjoy the rising of a new sun.  Learning to not only expect but respecting our turning points is a struggle.  Mainly because we have a vision of who we think we are.  It's not that we're wrong.  We just don't want to step free of the comfort zone.  When those turning points take place that's when we begin to struggle with the idea of having to eat, dress, accept and or leg go of things a new way.  The turning points won't go unnoticed. 


   

Tuesday, August 21, 2018

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 121

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While growing up I always took note of the older generation getting away with a lot of things they said and physically did.  It's almost as if a person hits a certain age and society accepts their actions as just being what old people do.  Being the bystander I wanted to know why so many forgave the actions.  More importantly what would turn off someone's personal censors?  My trip back home to Montana gave me a lot of insight. I heard these words a lot, "It doesn't matter."  Wow!  Talk about a Debbie Downer moment!  It doesn't matter?  I heard the other day a radio disc jockey talk about what it's like to turn 43 in Charlotte, NC.  He said, "You begin to realize that everything you dreamed about becoming probably isn't going to happen."  Basically meaning it doesn't matter.  It hit me hard.  Especially while  lecturing yesterday to a large group of future leaders.  While in break an 18 year old guest walked up, "Love the energy.  Sure looks achievable.  But...it doesn't matter.  I don't have the talent and skill to pull something like that off."  Without trying.  Not a walk or waddle through victory or challenge.  At such a young age.  It was already decided.  It doesn't matter.  Those making business decisions say the same thing.  The struggles have been taxing.  The view of what the upper managers see and demand.  It doesn't matter.  I can't reach that far.  I've had very successful friends walk away from their unbelievable positions in business.  It doesn't matter.  Can we turn this around?  People are trying.  New growth is an everyday event.  Staying true to the source of energy is a bump in the road.  Our constant need for instant success mandates that our positions of thought be in tune with a very out of tune consumer.  Saying it does matter is a life changer.  Winning is a choice.  Do you see a rainbow then look for the storm?  I'm guilty!  Why does it rain while the sun is shining?  I tend to laugh it off because it proves that Mother Nature is just as weird as the rest of us.  When you tell yourself that it doesn't matter you're ripping the scab off an old wound.  Telling yourself that it does matter revitalizes your intentions.  The perfect solution is being aware of what you say and how you say it.  When it matters your presence in other peoples journeys make you a leader and not a quitter.       

Monday, August 20, 2018

Am I Frozen In My Now

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This could easily be turned into a multi layered podcast with no way of truly locating the right answer.  Yet I'm charged up with the fact that such a thought and or feeling fell across my path and I didn't walk over it.  I chose to pick it up.  To make it a part of my now.  Mindfully I listen.  On today's show I dive into the very center of a lot of paths meeting as one.  Openly I admit that in order to get from my twenties into my thirties, forties and fifties I've had my share of Self Help and motivational books.  I love them all and read many of them as great reminders.  I've studied Native American Spirituality to Buddhism, Hinduism, Christianity and for a moment  I honestly thought my trail of tales was headed straight for Scientology.  I've always been this open sail shooting a ship across an unknowing universe.  Because I mindfully walk in the moment of now, I asked while in prayer, "Do you see me only in the now?" Then came those dreaded words that too many people pop out when doubting, "I often wonder how others pray?"  Is it a question that crosses the line?  I spend a lot of time writing about living a life in the moment of now.  How difficult it is to remain free of a past you can't change and a future that doesn't steal from the shape of today?  If it's all I activate.  Is it the only thing God sees of me?  Preachers will shout at the top of their lungs,"God is the all knowing.  He see's everything."  I respect that.  But if what I activate is the moment am I missing out on valuable lessons planted in the roots of a time my heart no longer recognizes?  As leaders do we keep ourselves from growing if we don't utilize the tools experienced during times of reaching forward, through and around giant boulders designed to look like dream breakers and careless whispers?  In what you think about not just now but daily are you frozen in a time that creates no room for growing?

Friday, August 17, 2018

He Gave His Life

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Freeing your thought process from the drama drawn up everyday on the forefront of news events and all things political.  I find it strange that so many normal people are looking deeply into their personal journeys and realizing an evolution of change is underway.  In the past couple of years many of my friends have traded their careers in for a different walk in life.  Most openly admit the stress wasn't worth the pay.  Pats on the back mean nothing in 2018.  Staring at those new walls of challenge aren't meant for every child carrying dreams.  We'd all love to live happily ever after.  To leap onto that path requires what?  The inner battles caused by the effects of an evolution of change opens the mind body and soul to areas that are more of an assumption then the actual experience.  When facing the mountains, the storms and the jagged edges caught between the glimpses of yesterday becoming today, where do you turn to be filled again?  The human can be loyally dedicated to determination and passion but if the knots in your stomach can't be untied, where do you turn to be filled again.  In this podcast I reach back two years to study the actions and reactions created by the evolution of change and how today the path that which leads to better choices is a greater strength because of decisions made.  The image in your mirror isn't who you were a year ago.  Not even five.  Were we designed to be hit by so many uncontrollable changes?  Yes...  How then can we win?  The power of choice.  Winning is always the choice.   

Thursday, August 16, 2018

Getting Over The Over


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The digital platform has changed more than radio, television, newspaper and music. I can walk into a McDonalds and tap my order into a huge screen. I'm doing the work and they charge higher prices. That huge notebook out front has eliminated jobs. Thanks to the success of Amazon, grocery stores, Walmart and Target have made online buying the must do. The digital platform has made our lives so easy! Pull back the lens of the camera and you'll see the unemployment numbers of brilliant minds and hard working people increasing. You won't see this on the news because propaganda is so easy to digest. We all want to live in a thriving country. We don't want bad news and God for bid please keep us free of all things that might invite fear, shame, doubt and guilt. We only want happy! How do you do that when the one skill you thought you mastered is no longer part of the process of success? The digital platform has erased your path from the history books. They sorta kinda taught us this in high school. I remember my economics teacher speaking of the day when all industries will no longer be in need of large numbers of human bodies. How then do you get over the over? How do you move beyond what's over? Too often we thrust ourselves back into the race by accepting lower pay for the same play. I'm far from being the only one in any business that doesn't fight to keep their skills locked in forward motion. Only to be consumed by the reality of over meaning over. Learning to rebuild requires faith, confidence, trust and absolutely no greed. You don't have room for it. I've learned a lot about being over. People that own and or manage businesses want your skills but come up with lame excuses as to why they can't pay for your knowledge and experience. My very good friend Nathan and I spent hours talking about this very subject. With strength he'd say, "You aren't designed to always give away your art. You have value. You have to trust in yourself so that the self you are won't be fed by the idea of being needed. That feeling of others depending on you is a cheap rush and it will destroy you. You need to get paid." Getting over the over. That talent or gift you have will never disappear, only the industry that once paid for HBO and a tank of gas. In this age of too many community schools pouring book taught students into the communities needing cheap labor, the deeply dedicated, loyal and determined need to collaborate and cross pollinate their skills. This is the time to build new empires using the digital platform as a universal language.  The reason why most don't try is because being part of the digital platform pays very little if any. Which totally goes against the conversations I had with my friend. We'd rather be over with the over then invest in the possibility of utilizing our gifts on a new platform that requires what we know and not who we know. The new age of quality is to get by with as little as possible. Less has proved its worth. It's more!        

Wednesday, August 15, 2018

I Am Because He Made Me His I Am

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Creative people are brilliant pieces of art.  I can spend hours tapping into their source of thoughts.  I find great joy in being with a creative person when discovery enters their way of walking.  I am also brave enough to be open with their hearts which have been stained by voices that endlessly tell them how much of a failure they are.  A creative person hears a lot of stuff everyday.  Not just from those invisible beasts but the outside circles filled with friends, family, coworkers and bosses.  "Just get over it."  "What do you have to be depressed about?"  "Have you seen a doctor?  There's a lot of new meds on the market."  No matter what you should always seek professional help.  The answer though isn't going to be found in the pill.  A creative person lays awake at night hoping to have enough energy at work to process their way through progress.  A creative mind searches every song played on the radio for hidden messages that will motivate their ambition and delivery.  A creative mind hits more walls than a NASCAR race in the center of summer.  The creative mind needs to know these two words, "I am."  Not "I will be.  I'm gonna be or I'm supposed to be."  You need to tell your inner core, "I am."  On this podcast I am extremely transparent in telling the story of those two words and how you can activate the choices you make.  I talk about my conversation with music legend Wayne Kramer who has turned his I Am into a mind blowing situation of great human growth.  I am...  Don't just practice it.  Live it. 

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 120

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My most recent journey back home to Montana wasn't designed to collect memories but rather to open my heart toward newer beginnings.  One such place of study was taking the time to write while sitting next to my father's grave site.  Since May 7, 2015 the physical thought of losing him hadn't truly sunk in.  Maybe it's the shape of my spirituality.  I thought for sure I'd be moved to deeper tears during that moment in a park with lots of statues and hand carved messages.  Let me explain.  I learned of my father's passing on Facebook.  To take in the moment I left the job and found myself sitting alone at the Billy Graham Library.  In all things real the very second I arrived I felt my father did as well.  For three years it's become our place of walking and just talking.  I created the iHeart Radio Channel The Lyrics From Billy's Forest due 100% to the conversations I was having with my father.  In June of 2018 I wrote from where his life is being celebrated.  I asked on paper "Dad?  Are you the same here in this place as you have been with me at the Billy Graham Library?"  What I felt in that moment was shocking by way of unlocking a lot of questions about death and departure.   

Monday, August 13, 2018

I Don't Want To Find Out

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Does it happen in America?  How and what you believe.  Do potential employers look at public displays of religion and determine that you aren't part of their newly designed team?  Do leaders that praise God at work judge what's been socially networked and feel your beliefs don't fit within their success?  This is a very heavy subject to carry in any direction.  I texted my preacher friend.  Told him that I was going to start laying low on sharing how God moves through me.  His replied, "Will you be happy?"  I instantly told myself, "I don't want to find out."  Does that make me weak or stronger because a step in either direction means confrontation.  To stop talking about Christ is censuring myself from what's truly taking place.  To mention I wouldn't be happy if I stopped forces the soul to ask more questions fed by rivers of doubt, shame and guilt.  These are supposed to be the greatest times.  There are more jobs then there are people!  Can being a religious person keep you from being hired?  Do employers feel if a person is public with their Holy Spirit beliefs it may put the company in a position of having to protect those who live life differently?  Same goes with companies where every day begins with prayer.  Do they read the notes posted and decide on the spot that a possible employee's studies aren't in tune with their way of raising hope and faith?  Would you be happy if you laid back and spent less time showcasing positive experiences? I don't want to find out.  I once applied for a radio job at a Christian station in Columbia, SC.  They wouldn't return my calls.  Not until I wrote a letter that asked which church they attend so I can become part of their circle of belief.  I got the interview only to have the sales manager, program director and GM grill me at lunch about how I serve God.  That's not the bad news.  That came when we all had to get back in the same car and return to the radio station.  It was a very quiet journey.  Radio isn't the only worship driven business that puts God's plan first.  If I got the interview would the end results be the same?  I don't want to find out.     

Friday, August 10, 2018

What Is The Price

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If you listen long and careful enough you hear how people are willing to put themselves out there in ways that say "I'd love to have rich people problems."  Really?  What was the price to attain such a place?  What's the price to maintain it day to day?  Lets break down the word rich.  We're all rich with something.  Some are rich with talent on a sports field or inside a banking community.  Many are rich with family traditions and savoring family recipes.  We're rich with great roads and hordes of traffic.  Rich with our love for nature or building new areas to explore.  We all have rich people problems.  Knowing this helps you layout each step of how you're able to pay the price.  Everything comes with expectation and the payoff on the end has to be something you've chosen to give up.  I love radio so much that it took me 40 years of on the air deliveries to realize how much I forgot about my original family.  I was reminded of it this last time while standing in a room with my brother in law.  He asked me why it took me 13 years to come home.  I opened my heart and said, "I've been chasing a dream."  He quickly asked "Did you catch anything?"  In that moment my heart whispered "No."  I'm not going to get my Dad or brother back.  That's the price I had to pay.  Rich with the passion to perform radio.  But it came with a cost.  We all face our pitfalls and stumbles but rarely do we learn from the bread crumbs laid lightly on the soils of life.  Peter walked on the water until he lost his faith in whom he was walking toward.  What's your story? 

Thursday, August 9, 2018

The Existence Of An Existent Now

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Preparing yourself to live in the present isn't a Hollywood movie happily lived ever after moment.  Bryan Adams isn't racing over to your place of personal growth with a power love ballad.  Being aware of your "Now" is work.  You have to exercise the knowledge every day several times a day.  The existence of an existent now puts your head and heart in the center of something you have the ability to control or at least the mindset to build a bridge.  Do we truly remember our past or are we holding onto partial story lines reconstructed to better serve our acceptance of a situation?  The same can be said about always planning the future before it arrives.  Participating with the existence of an existent now isn't the answer to all things gone wrong.  You can't stop a hurricane from crashing onto a shore.  You can forecast it!  Depressions, darkness, low moments and everything else that you've labeled a total buzz kill don't suddenly appear on the menu.  Awareness of how your body reacts to each emotion is no different then seeing a cloud take shape in the sky.  Does it make you an introvert to be so keen to your senses?  No.  It actually works the opposite way.  Your focused atmosphere on keeping level is a gift to those nearest your touch.  The next time your boss torches your path with too much expectation think about the existence of an existent now.  The situation is right there in front of you.  Deal with it.  The moment you tuck it away for later play is reason to feel off balance the rest of the day.  Do bosses change their ways and minds after the command has been delivered?  No.  Now you hold a lesson to one day teach when you've been chosen to lead.  Which totally shoves my thought pattern into a future we can't control because the average person doesn't want to be a decision maker.  Therefore the existence of an existent now shape shifts back into a gloomy environment of no reason to keep reaching forward.  No.  You're now aware of how you act and react and it gives you light when in the past you pointed your finger at other things for those roughed up feathers.  Being aware of where you presently stand is a very positive tool on your journey into the arms of brilliant success. 

Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Not A Fan Of Windows

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The title of this blog says it all.  I'm not a fan of those magical sheets of whatever is required to see through it.  It might because windows were the true beast in the movie Amityville Horror.  It might because my grandmother endlessly reminded us about how the eyes are the window to the soul.  Isn't that how business works?  Decision makers study the eyes then come up with conclusions that truly have nothing to do with you yet the path has been laid.  I once had a program director tell me, "You don't have the eyes to do an afternoon drive radio show."  I didn't question it.  It takes a very special shape of knowledge, experience and self awareness to pull of a show set in the center of people at work or lost somewhere in traffic.  Your eyes have to be able to envision who it is your sharing conversation with.  His message taught me to be open to the idea of locating better ways to communicate.  In this podcast I talk about how a whisper can be heard around the world.  The windows that you provide for others to look inside have to be clear enough in all walks of life.  But if you're like me and can't see anything out windows at midnight the next move would either be to pull the curtains closed or turn on a light.  We can learn a lot from windows without ripping a part the ambitions of a hard working person by determining what we think we know by looking into their eyes.  My parents constantly demanded that I look at them.  While lecturing in schools and on university campuses I make it a point to look directly into every set of eyes present.  Yes I can instantly tell when someone is lost or they're about to pass out from boredom.  Instead of assuming their condition and choice.  I stop at the window.  I ask about its design.  I learn more about the foundation keeping the windows in place.  I study the soil for strength.  I look toward the horizon to see if the windows catch the sunrise or sunset.  I don't wash the windows nor shut the windows.  I listen to them.  Then I'm invited inside. 

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 119

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My most recent trip back home to Montana is still very much alive within the steps I walk.  I didn't return home to catch up on memories or to feel like a kid again.  It was more of a journey to drop stuff off.  In each of our days we carry with us a ton of reasons to grab hold of more memories or to hold onto moments we still can't figure out.  It adds up quickly and without a doubt it becomes an out of focused path because each story eventually grows into another and suddenly life feels more like an unedited book rather than the blink of an eye adventure it was meant to be and become.  In this particular podcast of The Lyrics From Billy's Forest I openly admit how chasing dreams got the best of me.  I honestly didn't know who my family was when I returned home because I've been so determined to be something in radio that it caused a disconnection between family and dreams.  Sitting next to a lake I wrote about how God had a message for me to hold but he wasn't going to share it until I put down the writing instrument.  How many of us do this?  We are so consumed with how and why we need to grow that all things are set to the side including those that gifted us with the performance.  I wrote about how this journey back to Montana wasn't to gather new memories but to dump a bunch of them off.  It's almost as if God was saying, "Take all those experiences and leave them here.  I need your open mind body and soul to serve me in other places and there can be no added weight."  So I ask you about your dumping place.  Where were you called to visit not to take in but to let go?  How did you grow?  Was it like waving goodbye or welcoming a new beginning?  Being present in your now cannot be a string clinging to an old guitar that should've been tossed decades before.  Or.... are you waiting for that moment to set yourself free but you can't get there because you're still discovering? 

Friday, August 3, 2018

Akbar


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AKBAR GBAJABIAMILA - Host, "American Ninja Warrior" and "American Ninja Warrior: Ninja vs. Ninja"
Akbar Gbajabiamila is host of NBC's two-time Emmy Award-nominated hit competition series "American Ninja Warrior," which begins its 10th season this summer. He is also the host of the show's spinoff, USA Network's "American Ninja Warrior: Ninja vs. Ninja," which will air new episodes in spring.
Gbajabiamila is a former NFL star who also currently hosts one of NFL Network's highest-rated shows, "NFL Fantasy Live." He recently made headlines being parodied on "Saturday Night Live" by Drake, as well as hailed in the media as a hero for chasing down a hit-and-run suspect who sideswiped a Los Angeles motorcycle cop.
The L.A. native grew up in the Crenshaw district with his mother and father, both of whom were born and raised in Nigeria, and six siblings. Gbajabiamila is one of seven children of Nigerian immigrants. His first name means "great" in Arabic and his last name means "big man come save me," which derives from his paternal great-great-grandfather - an impressive man who stood 7-feet tall and was the moderator in the village in which he lived.
Born to be an athlete, his first passion was playing basketball. He was part of the basketball team at Crenshaw High School during the dynasty era coached by none other than Willie E. West. He also started playing football, pressured by coaches because his older brother was a powerhouse on the team.
When it came time for college he played football at San Diego State University, where he graduated with a degree in communication and new media studies before completing a certified entrepreneurship program at the Wharton School of Business in 2005.
The Southern California native played five years in the NFL as a linebacker and defensive end with the Oakland Raiders, San Diego Chargers, and Miami Dolphins before retiring in 2008.
While playing for the Chargers, Gbajabiamila contributed to KSWB, an NBC radio affiliate in San Diego, and co-hosted "Football Night in San Diego" from 2006-08. He went on to serve as an analyst for the Mountain Network and CBS Sports before joining the NFL Network in 2012.
The multihyphenate made his feature acting debut in the 2015 short film "The Sac Fly" and previously co-starred in a Funny or Die skit "Internet Cops with Nnamdi Asomugha." He was also a fan favorite on the 2009 ABC adventure series "Expedition Impossible," where he was selected by producer Mark Burnett to compete in challenges across the globe. More recently, Gbajabiamila made his debut on NBC's "The Night Shift," as well as hosted NBC's 2017 "Red Nose Day Special" and "Macy's 4th of July Fireworks Spectacular."
Gbajabiamila has a long history of volunteering and social consciousness. He currently serves as a board member for the Asomugha Foundation, an organization aimed at creating better educational opportunities for impoverished communities. He also serves on the board of the Michael J. Fox Foundation. As a collegiate undergrad, Gbajabiamila joined Athletes for Education, a youth education program where he was able to promote financial literacy for youth in the San Diego community.

He and his wife, along with their four children, currently reside in Redondo Beach with their beloved dog.

Wiz And Dumb Unequal Sides Of Harmony

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I have no problem openly admitting that I have no clue as to what's going on.  How each of us arrive is a personal step and opportunity and knowing how the moments are generated is beyond my landscape of thought.  I am not qualified to do what I do.  Yet it keeps happening.  How is that possible?  Wisdom sits in an empty jar in 2018.  It's not required to be hired.  All of that information that was stuffed into your head in college and how many graduates are truly doing what they set out to accomplish?  I don't know about you but I feel pretty dumb about a lot of the stuff that's taken place because being wise was to serve as the guide.  According to Dictionary.com wisdom is great judgement, knowledge and experience.  Sounds pretty fair doesn't it?  Three completely different paths that look equal but don't perform equal.  In a modern day business world the resume that gets answered doesn't know of the dumb things you did in order to attain each level of wisdom.  I say dumb because wisdom has two sides to it.  Wiz and Dumb.  Anyone can be a wiz at something but admitting you've done some pretty dumb stuff begins to fill the books of great judgement, knowledge and experience.  How many career choices does the average person have to make before they accept themselves as being a survivor?  How many times are you gonna go back to school until you land that dream job?  Not a guilt trip.  Just trying to get a better understanding as to why computer programs make decisions for businesses seeking employees that are hard working, dedicated, loyal and determined to create quality.  To achieve any of those is wisdom a requirement?  Wisdom is weight.  Decision makers call it two things: luggage and or set in your way.  Wanted are shape shifters that can be bent to play today's game.  Tomorrow everything changes. Wisdom keepers are friction in an office needing everyday solutions.  Taking what you know, have experienced and created through great judgement has become your roadblock on the highway to personal gain and success.   

Thursday, August 2, 2018

Called To Master The Art Of Stream Thinking

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We all have friends or family members that somehow someway know how to instantly come back with a thoughts that's either funny or impacting.  Spur of the moment off the cuff boom boom pow!  Rather than trying to understand the method of their art we suck in the message and walk down the path.  We're all gifted with what I call Steam Thinking.  We decide in our space not to utilize the strength of it's full potential and ability.  Stream thinking is performed everyday on social media.  Be honest...  How often do you put a lot of thought into the words you post?  I read them by way of studying your habits as a writer.  It's all out there funny puns to angry swings.  We're exposing our victories and injuries without knowing the end result of the echo.  If pointed out it's become too easy to tap into that digital device, "My bad."  What if Stream Thinking by way of trusting the moment and or present could be turned into a tool of discovery then utilized as a trusting source of future success?  Radio, television, comedians and actors have learned to master the art of Stream Thinking through their skills to adlib or put focus on improv.  Outside of hitting the comedy circuit or trying to score an acting job what's the benefit for the average Joe and his sister Wilma?  Great question!  The payoff is effort.  It's being completely aware of the elements in the moment.  Too often we go into meetings and or face others in gathering places already planning to say or do something.  Instantly we become saddened when the actions and reactions don't come to you in the way you assumed.  Through Stream Thinking you're already there.  Nothing kills me more than when my heart backed me out of a conversation because I was fearful of the answer that would be shot back.  My father wasted no time bonking me on the head when I spoke out of turn.  At least I got what I came looking for.  Open your heart.  Open your mind.  Set all that was yesterday in a place you no longer require.  Be in the moment by participating with "Now."

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

The Lyrics From Billy' Forest Chapter 118

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My most recent journey back home to Montana was more than a first time event in thirteen years.  I found myself in positions of thought that weren't fed by reminiscing but rather understanding the construction of the platforms to which I presently stand.  In all our pasts rest the original seeds of inspiration and influence.  Not always a positive fuel for the history books.  In today's world we're OK with that because we'll redesign the actuality of the experience on social media.  Lets break it down even further.  Many times throughout the day I'll take note of what's been described as a God Wink moment.  Those incredible victories that come out of nowhere and oh my God I can't believe you're the one that gets to experience it.  What if God Winks also include some of the worst moments of the chapters you write?  The importance of the downfall isn't how you got back up but rather how you're keeping someone from making the same mistake.  While in Montana I sat alone at Riverfront Park observing the beauty of how the Yellowstone River had cut into the soil a lay of land that still has the ability to generate energy in me today.  This one small section.  Maybe a mile wide has been the center point seed to multiple fields of harvest.  But not in the God Wink way that most people celebrate.  Three completely 100% negative moments that influenced how I share as well as teach even in today's lectures.  The hillside where my bicycle flew over a cliff and I wasn't wearing a helmet.  The river that sucked me under as a teenager and spit me out thousands of feet later.  The highway where the group of very drunk teenagers nearly rolled their car.  Extreme negatives right?  That's without mentioning that my book Halloween 78 was completely written about this one particular area of Montana.  Many of us have been in those moments.  You're lucky to still be here today.  God Wink.  Now...  How do you activate it?  Each of our lives are layered with horrid moments and bad decisions.  What if we stopped making it added weight and physically looked at it as being a purpose and part of a bigger plan?