The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 195

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For many of us we've entered the state of experience where we are beginning to compare the path to other days on the mountain.  I first started documenting thoughts about the Coronavirus on March 8, 2020.  I was pretty much like everyone else about not wanting to run from the falling sky but to stay in touch with the possibilities of being tripped by a cloud.  One of the things we see on social media is how each of us are dealing with social separation.  From binge watching to getting our news watching under control to spending more time on digital face to face connections.  On March 8th the writer was more interested in trying to figure out why the Stock Market was crashing then understanding how desperately we needed a cure.  And in those days that have passed we've learned how many law makers cashed in on their investments to keep from losing their financial foundations.  One of them being Amazon's top dog Jeff Bezos.  On this podcast the atmosphere of how I was going to be putting words down was rapidly changing.  I couldn't just show up and free form the energy.  It was time to document the presence of Now.  And in those paragraphs I did ask where God is in all of this.  The writer wasn't losing faith.  He wanted to make sure that whomever anyone believes in now might actually be the time to remove yourself from self needs and begin a path of needing to serve.  On March 8th the author didn't know that on the 31st the nation and globe would be looking at another 30 plus days of isolation.  And what have we learned?  Can I openly admit that its proved to my inner mind body and soul that if my wife and I ever truly wanted to get into the RV and go away forever we'd really get along in a very fun way of loving to be in love with all things while reaching out to help rebuild platforms others are clinging to to stay above the water.  Never more in my life am I ready to be present in the now when its time to free ourselves from the isolation and get out into the world to pull others back to the shore.  Your turn.  Hello?  Are you there?  What's life like on your side of mountain? Hello?

That One Tool

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I've made it known over the past three weeks that an evolution of change had to be experienced during this unpredictable time of challenge. I've never hid the story of how living in the present is my way of walking. Being mindful of the moment. Grateful for all things in any shape and size. Reaching that point hasn't been simple because there aren't too many teachers, only books that lay claim to the importance of it being. Since March 10, 2020 I had to make a hardcore move toward making the presence of now even more available. My blogs and podcast episodes of years past have always been the experiences and thoughts of several years before. I fermented the process because in order to grow from it all things that make up the atmosphere had to be lived. Today is different. Without a net the words, sentences and paragraphs go from the field to the store. Imagine how you'd feel knowing that what you're presently living inside this Coronavirus world didn't have time to mix in with yesterdays delivery of headlines, personal struggles with questions and musicians that screamed at you because the interpretation you offered during a conversation of celebrating a new album ended up being two sides of a creative fence. How do you take that and learn from it. From today's writing in this moment of now that's the subject of this episode. Louder than the virus itself I can't help but believe in the days that follow there will be a huge hole slammed into the souls of those making art. Nobody wants their voice, pictures, expressions and explanations to be connected to this place that's consuming our everything. And yet through art the world grows. What is that one tool you need to be holding? Use it to reconstruct tomorrow.

Living In A Bread Box

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One of the toughest things about this Coronavirus shut down is trying to convince my creative self that no matter where it all comes from the energy moving through each of us has to be activated. Not when you're in the mood. Not when you feel depressed or lonely. Creative energy doesn't know there's a pandemic taking place. It just knows how you've always given it a place to grow. And when you're creative space isn't given a stage or voice it begins to eat away at the inner core of your mind body and soul. The scenes continue to change. How we watch the news, listen to music, binge watch television to taking with friends on the phone. Through a plastic screen. But as people we cant be hidden away by way of holding back on the truer emotions. Sadly we are. It reminds me of an old episode of The Jetsons. The mother really didn't want to be seen on their space age communication boxes so she put on a plastic mask. Riding the edge of our emotions needs to be unlocked because our normally open 4 walls feel like a bread box. How is your spoken word? Are you sharper in your conversations not so patient to listen? We're all suffering from hidden discomfort. Standing here in 2020 I know why my Master in Martial Arts led me toward meditation. I didn't get it. I hated it. It was embarrassing to be in this place with others doing something I felt should be kept private. The energy from that day never left me. It guided me to look deeper into the history and its presence in our Now. Meditation is like prayer. It's unbelievably private. Its like asking someone what they did in the bathroom. We just don't do that. But with the openness of a moment we are out of control of those who have relied in privacy on the tools that have invited peace need to step out onto the streets of everyday and help build a place where peace can live not just in their life but the eyes on the opposite side of this screen. A thought came to me in prayer this morning. So many people are looking for God's presence in all this. Here's what my writing instrument put into the veins of the living tree. In this moment of Now the presence of God or the Universe is in the senses we were given at birth. Sight doesn't always have to be the golden ring. This Coronavirus is an invisible monster. God has to be invisible to defeat its strength. Look for your peace in every one of your senses. You're life will change.

How It Going On Your Side Of The Planet

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They keep telling us that we are universally connected by way of the Coronavirus. I guess I trusted too much of that because wow we're not on the same page. Madonna shares a video of how she thinks Covid-19 is a great equalizer. No person is safe. She's pretty much calling all people out. She's doing it from a bathtub filled with what looks to be filled with flowers and other essences but the meaning of the message should be carried forward. My interpretation of the video was 100% without a doubt a form of prayer and or meditation and she happen to be setting free the message from the universe with her eyes wide open. But it's become somewhat of a joke to others who don't understand the reach. We are being equalized by something we can't control. Why does that have to be the butt of a joke? Many of us have reached areas of our mindset that couldn't be predicted but we can keep it running forward. I don't want to call it a depression. I just know what low feels like. I keep trying to compare this to a movie. Nothing comes to mind. We aren't seeing zombies, ghosts or enemy war planes. It's not about the Baby Boom Generation, Gen X or Z. It's not about Millennials. Its about the world being equalized without man made wars. So how's it going on your side of the planet?

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 194

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In all things I'm doing not only as a daily writer but as the host of numerous podcasts I have followed my heart to make sure I remain in the presence of the present.  Being mindful of the moments.  Grateful for the daily sunrises.  Which means what?  Since 2012 my podcasts have featured the paragraphs and sentences of past experiences.  We learn more from a past that's been documented then we do trying to trust the shape of a memory.  The Lyrics from Billy's Forest are a collection of free form thinking moments brought to the center of the page while sitting with nature in whatever forest is present.  On March 8, 2020 the first mention of the Coronavirus was  put into the weaves of the paper.  I can physically see, feel and hear his questions but have no clue as to where the writer will be in the moments ahead.  I dropped all the writing before this page because as the month of March continued to take its shape 146 nations had something in common with no answer as to how we as a human race were going to deal with a new age guessing game.  This isn't a buzz kill podcast but one that reflects what the writer was sifting through while the universe spoke softly by way of nature being present in the Now.  Pretty deep right?  Not until you realize the number of religions outside of Christianity that know how important the animal kingdom has been to the humans survival.  Our egos drove us away from the circle.  Look whats happening today.  Take a walk on a path through a park or sit in your yard with no radio or television on.  The animal kingdom knows.  I guarantee you one thing.  No human in these 146 nations overcome by Coronavirus is touching and loving their pets the way they were nearly a month ago.  The kingdom knows.  God is using the animals to keep us focused, loved, understood and more importantly welcome in a time of no answers for any question.  Somewhere in March of 2020 there sits Noah.

Grow With It

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Long before we began to see how fast life can change they were already in the midst of the journey in other sections of the world.  There's no way that I was the only one that doubted this!  I was convinced in my heart that God wouldn't bring what they're saying to our front door.  Here in the states we're entering our second week of a strengthening uncertainty.  Most have turned off the news. Binge watching is the new norm.  My wife and I take a lot of walks and have gotten really good at playing card games.  On this podcast I step up to the microphone of transparency.  More than last week we're gonna need the power of a giving God, Universe, Yahweh or whatever  you have placed in the core of your path moving forward.  Being aware of what is and isn't a false platform of certainty.  FaceBook is proving to be the global release.  I challenge you to turn it around.  Don't air your dirty laundry.  Grab a notebook and write a letter to your child's grandchildren.  I've also noticed the importance of binge watching television.  It feels pretty darn great at two, three and four in the afternoon.  Twelve hours later I was in bed wanting my digital drug to make the world great again.  Growing with it doesn't mean to locate ways to shove all of this to the side.  It's learning about yourself and others around you.  How you're handling the stress filled moments versus the lighthearted laughs and itty bitty jokes about a very bad time in our history.  I've spent time talking with friends on the telephone because what we once had that made us close had drifted to the side and the current situation has reunited our hearts.  Grow with it.  Our vocals are going to change in the days ahead.  Each sentence will start to turn downward and come across as a low moment or disgust with the administration.  We don't need a rise of the people.  What we need a growing community of perseverance and leadership made possible by each of our personal steps on a journey completely out of our hands.  Don't try to doctor it.  Grow with it.  Let it move through you by way of always walking with peace.

Freedom From The Bunker

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I put myself there.  A crazy thought. To think that in this present place of the Coronavirus that we are trapped.  A feeling of being imprisoned, hidden away in a bunker or locked in a safe room somewhere in the world where others can't see.  As a creative mind I had to free myself from such thinking.  Yes California has pulled their people in but the Mayor of Los Angeles clearly stated that they are not locked down.  They can still walk about by way to hitting the store, getting exercise and bathing in the sun.  On this podcast I continue the walk through the daily writing which is positioned in December of 2016.  I'm still convinced that who we are right now on March 20, 2020 is an experience and story for a different time.  Who you are.  What you are doing.  It's for a future self that's going to need this friction on the path to build a newer presence in that persons present.  I bring this up because the daily writing from December 2016 is speaking directly into the heart of our now.  He doesn't beat around the bush.  It's honest.  It serves as a great motivator.  A path for some.  Sure we are getting a lot of family time during this pandemic but what we aren't focused on are the moments where you want to be left alone.  Your time.  Your space.  Your visions and decisions without having to include a second and third party.  Marriage is a partnership not ownership.  Be strong with yourself by respecting everything you are and it includes that walk by yourself.  I keep a de-frag journal where I do nothing but free form write.  My wife is checked out and I'm checked into doing what I do.  You can't stop being you or you're going to feel like you're in a bunker, imprisoned  or lost on a mountainside with lions, tigers and bears.  Oh my! 

Who Will You Meet

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My wife and I have adopted this new flight plan of taking longer walks with our beautiful dog Jazzie.  Jazzie loves walking to the top of the hill to watch the chickens behind the fence.  She doesn't chase or spook them.  She stands there just watching.  Looks over at us and showcases the most brilliant dog smile on the planet.  Then we make our way down the hill and right back up another we've labeled Heart Break because of it's tilt on the planet.  Two weeks ago none of this would've been taking place.  A new person in all of us is growing.  Here's what I find inspiring.   The daily writer from December 1 2016 must have known.  On this podcast we go back to those pages and see how who we are today is a messenger for tomorrow.  Which makes me want to get personal for a moment.  Who will you meet?  The world will not be the same when this Coronavirus is over.  You won't be the same.  Who will you meet?  I've never hidden my desire to write.  The multitudes of paragraphs that are escaping the walls that once held it back is like water flowing through a stream.  Yeah life sucks right now.  But does it?  On the other side of this will you find little notes you left for your future self?  And when you bump into the older self in ten to fifteen years after the virus will the messages you set free still be talking?  Who will you meet?  I guarantee one thing.  Who you are after waking up today isn't anywhere close to who you were last week at the same time.  Who will you meet?

A New Age Of Aloneness

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I'm not sure what vibe your picking up but I took note of an uncomfortable feeling while watching last nights eleven o'clock news.  All the anchors were on separate cameras.  Sitting together at the desk is what we did last week.  A new age of aloneness has entered our walking space.  Social Distancing has been enforced without gifting us with enough time to practice for it.  I understand why so many cities are having difficult times trying to get everyday average people to pull themselves inside.  They aren't!  The mind body and soul require human contact and connection and the thought of sitting in my recording studio all day felt good before the Coronavirus but now that I have to do it.  It's eating away at every reason why I create.  To participate with.  To belong.  To build with or rip apart.  A very good friend asked if I wanted to take a walk through the Green Way.  I didn't let an invisible second slip by before I firmly replied, "Absolutely not."  On this podcast we venture into my daily writing of November 2016.  Right away I talk about the idea of moving through a past that's already happened.  It's not living in the past but learning from the past.  On this particular day I was reminded of a lesson taught by Steven Furtick about Looping.  We are expected to return to different areas of our life because we'll see the situation through different eyes.  Like the daily writing.  What I was living in 2002 or 16 isn't how its received in 2020.  The Loop makes it possible for you to finally get a grip on growing in newer directions or forgiving what you thought was a lot of weight.  The experiences we are going through right now with Coronavirus will one day serve as an amazing tool.  But you need to document the moment.  You can't expect to come back to this ten years from now.  You'll rewrite the story not live by way of the experience.  This new aloneness.  Let me say one thing.  Aloneness isn't even a word. My Spell Check is screaming at me!  This new age of aloneness is going to get worse.  It's putting people in an invisible unrecognized depression that's going to end up being the food for your next vice.  I'm praying for people who already have out of control addictions.  Awareness of how your body is reacting is vital and you can't keep your silence to yourself.  Don't try to hide the emotional evolution you're moving through now and will face in the days ahead.  Nobody is talking about this.  It's all about the economy and the virus.  Mental illness is about to hit an all time high and it may require the rest of your life to heal from it.  Don't keep your aloneness a secret.  When you start feeling the impact of a depression or downward fall that puts you in a mindset of changing your pattern and path don't wait for your mood to change.  Get help.  Chelsea Lately has a podcast that is deeply dedicated to locating the strength to pull yourself through.  There are on-line professionals that won't cost you an arm and leg during this global unemployment.  You can't sit inside aloneness and expect to grow.

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 193

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From out of nowhere I tend to bring up a thought that sort of kicks a comfortable walker of their path.  Without explanation I'll send a text or bring forward in conversation, "Where's your God?"  It's not to challenge their beliefs!  Not to signify that something Holy isn't being seen.  It's just my way of asking, "Where are you in all of this?"  A gut check of sorts.  A reminder that serves no purpose other than to build a stronger pair of legs carrying an unexpected load of fresh weight.  On this podcast we leap into that question by way of reminding the walker that our present place and state have been lived out before.  The only difference is that we can see in the pages their physical beginning, middle and end.  Not so much in this current place of Now.  Psychologists say that's why we're buying everything.  We've got this unbelievable void in our life and it needs to be filled by what we think is a positive and or a layer of comfort and security.  Where's your God?  I didn't say the Christian God.  I said your God.  Where is that source of the rising river arriving from? We wake up to a new day everyday.  Five seconds on Facebook and the entire emotional system is overtaken by how this is affecting everyone.  Not a particular group, rich or poor, old or new, everyone.  With no true outcome.  Not yet.  Where's your God?  The greatest leaders in business can't forecast this.  There's not one shred of research available for anyone to study.  What's your outlet?  Where are you going when you feel good one second and in doubt another?  Where is your belief in the medical connections?  Have you taken note of how the world isn't talking about war or corporate takeovers?  Millions are working from their homes.  Talk about a learning curve.  To be focused and just as dedicated like you're in the office.  Brush your teeth.  Comb your hair.  Put on a business suit.  Play the game.  You wouldn't be so free to say anything if you were locked to that daily desk.  Disciplining yourself during a time where this could actually be your new self.  Where's your God?  Mine is pushing these computer keys.  Being present in a wall that doesn't come across too heavy into the verses but rather an experience that participates with the recovery of our Now.  Where's your God?  Don't leave home without it.

Social Distance

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Well that didn't take very long.  I hear something like social distance and without a doubt the mind body and soul wants to dig in deep and locate a spiritual explanation.  In doing so I begin to ask questions.  Lots of them.  Most of the replies have been locked into the typical, "What do you mean and where are you going with this?"  Social distance is a must.  We have to live with it as our present place of Now.  Without it we face moments even darker than what 146 nations around the world are enduring.  Your social distance cannot become a social disconnection.  That's been extremely heavy on my heart since the reality of all of this set in less than a week ago.  We're already the generation that doesn't mind Ghosting family and friends on the social media.  What happens when social distancing evolves into the everyday pattern?  Schools, businesses, restaurants, bars and other places of socializing are closed.  Here sits the internet.  You can't hear my vocal inflection.  Your heart will paint for you an assumption as to what mood I'm in or trying to set.  Which is why it's so important that human interaction has got to be physical phone conversations.  Face to face time on the phone looking at each others actions and reactions is vital to our steps growing forward.  On this podcast I am transparent on how important it is to not let go of whatever you believe in. Whether it's the universe, God, Buddha, Shamanism, Hinduism...  Whatever you believe, each of us are now the student.  We are to learn from this without hoarding the experience.  Let this unexpected change in global energy serve as a place of lessons that shall be used to teach in the years and decades in front of us.  And on this walk if you shall stop, stumble and begin to doubt you must have a backup plan, place, person or area in your personal life that you can retreat to so that your social distance doesn't become a social disconnection.  Churches all over the world have utilized the strength of the internet by way of posting thousands of messages from other books of experience.  A daily diet of learning from them will help keep your present place of Now focused on how your Now is being used.  Create a blog.  Build a podcast, video or other shape of communication.  We can't place ourselves in a world where we don't know what's happening on the other side of each others walls of social distance.

Speaking To This Moment

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I honestly can't tell anyone where we are right now.  I know of the moment has presented!  I can't tell you how to get to Montana.  I know its a big state and if you head in that direction you might make it.  Isn't that what Lewis and Clark did?  I posted some junk on Facebook today that could easily have an impact on your journey forward.  An unexpected, unplanned mission to somewhere.  Here's what was posted:  Ladies and Gentlemen don't forget to journal during this rare moment in global history. Do not rely on your memory to share future stories. Just a page a day. Put down the moment. Don't analyze it. Don't news report it. Be whoever you want to be from worried to funny. You'll never get this experience back. When you try to remember it in the future you're rewriting it. I still have my Space Shuttle Challenger moments, Twin Towers, Stock Market Crash of O8. Not a Debbie Downer. I don't need NBC News to tell my Great Grand kids what we were going through. I mean a shortage of toilet paper? Is there an app to find more? A Facebook group?  Speaking to the moment.  You don't have to hold the answers.  Lord knows the captains flying the church pulpit are asking about the same things you are.  On this episode of The Choice podcast we're reaching into the daily writing of November 29 2016.  I'm a firm believer that every person on this planet was born to create.  We choose not to.  In doing so you've cut off a very important line of communication.  Your mind body and soul are constantly talking to your future self.  This is why I challenge you to dig up those old boxes of poetry and or paintings, doodles or song lyrics,  Get into those boxes and put your eyes on the art that fell from you.  What you'll learn is how much that inner source of invisible energy that brings creativity forward is speaking to this moment.  I do challenge you to journal during this current wave of discomfort.  I want you to leave messages not just for you but to people you'll never meet.  Talk with them like you know them.  Invite them into your heart and share the process of how you're being put in a situation of decision making that nobody has an answer to.  One more thought then you can hang up.  It's known that I study the word of Christ at Elevation Church.  A local place of great word.  Since 2015 I moved everything about my journey into my home.  I get my church on at home thanks to the app.  This weekend thousands of people who show up for church will experience the beauty of Steven Furticks calling to create a digital platform of connection.  Speaking to this moment.  It happens to you everyday.  Don't let so much slide away.  You were born to bring things forward.  Love your art.  Embrace the experience.  Celebrate the outreach.

Portrait Of The Now

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I'm no expert in helping to heal emotional disconnections caused by societies walk on the streets of Here and In Between.  Through writing daily it was brought to my attention that maybe the harsh news we are getting today about Coronavirus and the political battle for the White House isn't really what's taking us down and out.  It's triggering how we've been here before.  We know how we acted and reacted.  Some of us lost a lot and others gained just a little.  But it seems like everything we're moving through has already been lived.   It just has a new name and image.  On this podcast we walk through a conversation written in November of 2016 based on letting the presence of Now be the solution and not the next scar.  It's horribly difficult to evolve into such a lifestyle because we're endlessly being triggered by social media's punch in the gut with stories that come across as being real only to learn a lot of emotional energy was burned up because the author thought false or not it would get people to talk.  Letting all things move through you.  I don't find enjoyment being a writer.  I locate awareness.  I study what's in motion and in the process of generating a solution I'm carrying with me a lot of notes.  I may not use them today but one day the experience will serve as a guide.  Like this moment of writing from November of 2016.  The writer didn't know of our present conditions in the headlines.  He spoke of letting things move through you and in doing so make sure you study what you're setting free.  I don't remember anyone teaching me to do that in middle school Health class.  Fear cannot be your answer.  Fear cannot serve as the guide.  Fear is your poison.  What are you choosing to wash it away with?  What is your most recent new habit?  While the headlines are hot and heavy right now how many years will it take to step free of the escapes you've given yourself permission to use?   Portrait of the Now.  It doesn't cost anything to jot down a few notes.  Being aware of yourself and how you are consuming the world is a brilliant step toward healing emotional disconnections.

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 192

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During my terrestrial radio days I was known as the keep smiling and keep loving those pets guy.  Never a day of rain its liquid sunshine.  Even today at the end of all of these famous people conversations I pull it to a close with a solid "Be brilliant today."  Yep I'm one of those people!  The type that tends to make a lot of people kind of angry because how could someone be so positive?  On this podcast I talk about an event that unfolded on February 14, 2020.  I was introduced to a coach that believes 100% in neutral thinking.  He says the power of positive thinking puts you in a mode of comparison.  If I'm having a great day then what am I comparing it to?  Yesterday's bad day?  Another great example is this current global situation we're experiencing.  The Coronavirus can easily be that moment where a lot of communities join together to locate peace of mind.  Like going to church.  Then on the podcast I came back with but please no face to face time.  That's taking a positive then turning it into a negative. With neutral thinking its embracing your awareness of now.  Allowing the atmosphere to move through you without judgement, fear, doubt and shame.  It's a lifestyle changer.  Being a positive talker on terrestrial radio wasn't an easy task.  Creative people battle with emotions 24-7 and to be positive on the air was me actually trying to make a difference by way of not inviting others into Hell.  Trevor Moawad's new book It Takes What It Takes teaches the heart to stop giving credence to feelings.  Start learning to use what you already have.  Reduce negativity without raising positive energy.  More importantly be aware of your language. How you are talking to yourself and others.   Lets put focus on that final one.  Watch your language.  Although I'm still extremely new to this path of neutral living, the way we pray is also affected.  When you show gratefulness what are you actually doing?  Comparing it to the moments when you feel less grateful.  Or we run into prayer completely freaked out over the Coronavirus.  I get it.  But being negative and filled with fear doesn't teach your walk to be prepared. Whereas neutral thinking and decision making allows you to deal with what's at hand.  It's something you have to practice everyday.  You've got a lot of living in your bones and it will make a huge difference during times of every emotional expression.

Measuring The Depth Of Personal

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Stream Thinking can be a great place to wander.  Without fear or judgement the nib of your writing instrument taps into a stream of consciousness that gives you permission to move toward creative caverns unseen.  The opposite side of that is how others receive what you're bringing back.  Other people's opinions and lack of support can instantly silence the artist.  I cross the line on this episode of the podcast The Choice.  It's like standing on the corner of walk and don't walk.  Growing up with a very spiritual mother who made it clear "Do not ever talk about religion.  It's personal.  Nobody needs to know your business."  Then you've got today's church leaders wanting your experiences to be used as a tool to keep others from going toward a dark dirty dug out hell that has no regret for gulping up so many innocent.  Through Stream Thinking, the openness of the conversation keeps both sides in their rightful place while studying the what if's and the why nots.  It's no different than a place of business.  There's always the hardcore deeply dedicated going to give my life to every sacrifice in the name of success.  Then there's the employee that shows up, gets the job done but doesn't lean into the idea of showing others how the accomplishment was achieved.  I've run into a lot of that during these early years of podcasting.  So many brilliant performers with great connections and decisions but when you ask a question its almost like talking to my mother about religion.  You get the look not the reply.  How do you measure the depth of your personal.  Personal whatever!  Where along the line did you finally give yourself permission to stop trying to be one of the most brilliant coworkers on the planet?  When did being OK compared to great become the everyday norm?  Measuring the depth of your personal.  It has nothing to do with Mike, Tammy and Kyle.  They can do the same exact thing you're doing and the experiences will never be the same.  Yet we don't keep what's personal to ourselves. We make it social.  Which can easily lead to the average person becoming a follower rather than being their leader identity. Not a judgement call!   Awareness.  Being aware of how you got here.  Did the measuring of your personal get to be too much?  Once pushed away just being accepted became the easier place to show up everyday.  I keep a daily De-Frag journal.  It's only purpose is to do nothing but measure the depth of personal.  To utilize the strength of Stream Thinking to get me into the areas that need to be talked about.  To be with awareness.  Present with your now.  Welcome to the first step of your brand new beginning.   Study the path of thought. Listen to both sides of reason and season.  Make yourself available for change.  The challenge is never going to retreat.  It works out better when you know what's defeating you.

Hey The Other Day

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This is a tough one to talk about.  My Mother would call this, "The stuff people shouldn't talk about."  Yet in this age of more openness and growth it actually might be content enough to generate a connection because it was talked about.  I'm a daily writer.  26 years...  In the early days it was about freeing the mind body and soul.  To rid the system of the weight caused by the everyday.  Cuz that's what Julia Cameron said in The Artist Way.  Write three pages daily.  Put it out there because you don't need to carry it.  It became a way of life.  She and I have talked about it.  We laughed and drew each other into even deeper subjects to talk about.  What isn't really talked about is how important writing should be for everybody.  It's the dot on the map.  You think age makes us remember less?  Thank God my memory is still intact but through writing I keep coming across stuff I totally forgot about.  It stunts me.  I sit down to catch my breath.  The ego immediately begins to measure how many miles it is from the moment and or season experienced.  Reading about it will it invite it back to this day?  That's a choice.  On this podcast I read from November 26 2016.  From where I presently stand on March 6, 2020 I see the current position but ultimately I can't admit to how I got here.  Neither can you.  You are here.  You know of the different layers and mile makers but due to a complicated world a lot of baby steps have been lost.  That's why I daily write.  Not because I knew it would lead to this.  I was just trying to mentally dump the junk.  Only to learn that the future person would wander through the pages and see the baby steps.  One at a time.  Some forward.  Many in every direction but where the origin of the dream was trying to head.  But we are here.  Ten years from now we might come across this post and think about how and when did all of this suddenly disappear.  Don't daily write to brag about life or to try and figure things out.  Paint the walls of the page with whatever you feel in the moment.  Free form thinking.  Then one day you'll look back and take note of the baby steps.  Yeah the baby steps.

The Power Of Hidden Speak

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Because I'm a 26 year daily writer I'm well aware of how I walk into each new day before the sun rises.  The discipline isn't always to make sure three pages are filled but rather to be in control of what I fill it with.  I'm like everyone else.  If you wake up grumpy that becomes the weight of the day.  If I'm questioning or feel doubt my confidence and courage take a hit by a dull ache to not want to grow.  On this podcast I put focus on two words.  Beyond and What.  When my writing self gets hooked up with words it won't let them go.  I hit the dictionary.  I study the origin.  I try to use them in different areas of interest.  Or I allow them to speak.  To say anything.  I call this Hidden Speak.  Putting words out there that have nothing to do with what you're presently feeling and yet to shove them into a sheet of paper uses just as much energy.  Hidden Speak!  I know at the drop of a hat when someone is verbally using it on me.  They just don't realize I have a name for the game.  Learning how to use Hidden Speak as a tool allows your present mindset to know where it stands without having to blister your moment with why you're in a heated mood.  Instead of cussing out loud in the car or office throw in any word.  Monkey fur on a wet paved road!  Mustard stains from a pickle jar!  Nobody has to know how you feel or why you're fearing the arrival of another drama driven day at work.  Peanut butter slices of pumpkin paper!  Say it like you mean it.  Write it like you've been given permission to cuss and cut down.  So how does the writer react when he pages back four years and tries to figure out the lesson at hand?  He laughs.  It's as if the author of 2016 knew the dude down the road would need a break from the typical.  Burnt hot dogs in a chicken bone!  Wow that was a stress reliever.  Hidden speak.  As for what I wrote about Beyond and What?  It wasn't good.  For a man that battles everyday to be present and live in the now, words like beyond put me outside the walls of where the focus should be.  Beyond doesn't make you a visionary.  Beyond prepares you for a fast paced arrival of tomorrow.  The word What?  Count how many times you say it.  What?  People especially kids say the most odd ball things and your first reaction is What?  Many times you really don't want to know the answer.  You just had to fill the silence.  What?  Exactly.

Think Write Deliver

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My father always asked me, "What were you thinking before you pulled off this bird brain stunt?"  I'd start to explain only to be interrupted, "You don't have a real answer or you would've thought this out. Now you have to face the consequences."  The problem with his second comment is that I did know what I was doing.  I've always been a thinker, writer and deliverer.  Even today after placing thought into the daily writing I'll try to activate what the imagination has put in front of me.  If what you think sits in the afterthought isn't that wasting your time?  The minutes and seconds required to formulate a thought.  You're not getting it back.  On this podcast I talk about how we should learn to check in with our writing selves.  You don't have to be a daily writer to participate.  But it would be nice for you to tap into the inner self that loves to post a ton of things on social media or invest a tremendous amount of time and energy is chumming it up with friends and family.  In all things you do the first step or movement is always a thought.  While reading from November 24, 2016 I turned to page three. To my shock a perfectly shaped dried leaf was waiting for me.  That self putting ink into the veins of the page nearly four years ago was kind enough to send a leaf forward.  What was I thinking right?  For a brief moment today I wasn't thinking about the Presidential Elections, Coronavirus, Stock Market or when am I going to eat breakfast.  I mean I've been in this recording studio since 5:30 this morning and its ten before eight.  Becoming aware of what you think and how you think puts you in the presence of now.  Knowing how you'll write it prepares you for how its going to be delivered.  I know way too many people including myself that weren't thinking before shooting out an email or text.  I've ripped down several Facebook posts because even though the thought seemed right it truly shouldn't have made its way into the light.  Maybe the title should be Think Write Think Correct Think Deliver.  Then again, aren't those the opening steps of being a perfectionist?  Once inside that realm procrastination is given permission to belong to the moment.  I was listening to a podcast with Kesha yesterday where she confessed to how difficult it is for her to be herself.  One bad word and you're cancelled.  Were you truly Ghosted by those once close?  What did you write after little time was spent thinking?  Look at Chris Matthews from Hard Ball!  He recently retired because a few words he shared were no longer acceptable in today's news and business world.  He didn't seem ill.  He very professionally said that today's new leaders have a better feel of what a greater environment at work could feel like if we corrected the way we talked with others.  Think Write Deliver...

Anne-Marie Johnson

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Created and executive produced by Emmy winner/Academy Award nominee Ava DuVernay (Queen Sugar, When They See Us), Cherish the Day follows the stirring relationship of one couple, who meet and fall in love in Los Angeles, with each episode spanning a single day over the course of five years. The compelling drama –which airs Tuesday nights on OWN: Oprah Winfrey Network --unfolds to reveal significant moments in a relationship that remind us to hold true to the ones we love, from the extraordinary to the everyday.

One of the stars of the new series is veteran TV and film actress Anne-Marie Johnson. TV viewers will remember Anne-Marie as the star of hit series including In the Heat of the Night, In Living Color and Melrose Place. For five seasons she portrayed Rep. Bobbie Latham on the CBS hit military drama JAG, and appeared as Sharon Upton Farley on the hit WB comedy Girlfriends. Johnson also starred as Donna Cabonna on Disney Channel’s hit series That’s So Raven, and had a recurring role on Tyler Perry’s TBS hit sitcom House of Payne. On the big screen, she appeared in memorable films such as Hollywood Shuffle, I’m Gonna Git You Sucka, and Down in the Delta.

The Lyrics From Billy's Forest Chapter 191

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Received and email the other day that pointed to the process of how I write then deliver it by way of podcasting.  They said, "You say things that put thoughts in places my afraid self would like to talk about but I'm never able to bring it up. Yet you have this way of starting a conversation between me, myself and I."  That style is nothing more than a method of madness.  It's about identifying what is here.  Then moving it there.  Businesses practice it everyday.  The product is created here.  It's sold there.  Your life is no different.  You are present in the now.  Whether it's great, good or a horrid storm, it cannot stay here.  It needs to be there.  Getting it to that position requires the physical act of relinquishing.  Letting go of what you think belongs to you.  I don't know if it was Yoga Nidra that taught me or Steven Furtick shouting out, "How is God moving through you."  But something unlocked the block.  Nidra is my meditation.  It's extremely easy to practice but difficult to grasp, activate, learn from then return to step one.  You think that's too much stress?  Put that single sentence from Furtick into your walk and way.  How is God moving through you?  You can't just give up what you don't want to keep.  This isn't a garage sale.  How is it moving through you requires action.  It must begin though with a truer understanding of what it's truly trying to say.  Especially if we are here.  Now lets get it there.  How?  Awareness followed by reflection.  Knowing how this moment of now will always have an impact on someone else when it arrives there.  Here's where we get knocked off the path.  We think we're supposed to control who's going to get it.  When Johnny B Cool doesn't warm up or feel energized then we back away and so often back out.  We want to see the happily ever after conclusion not the cliffhanger.  What if the only thing you did today was let your present place in the now just move through you.  It doesn't have to be a religious moment or a Yoga stance.  It's knowing that in all things you do requires the energy of things completely beyond you.  That car you drive.  What if the men and women that built it thought, "No No No its mine!  We can't let it go!"  Here.  Now move it to there.

To See The Writing

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Many times along the way my source of energy and how it's shared has served as a buzz kill.  Not because I'm dragging my attitude around like it's deep dark and depressed but rather because I honestly feel great about being in the moment.  I've always had this way of being able to look into the eyes of what's been labeled negative and locate a smoother solution.  Which doesn't always sit well with others.  They want real. Therefore I've been asked many times to crank down Captain Positive and step into their pool of the sky is falling.  On this podcast we get extremely deep and probably way too religious.  Is there such a thing?  There!  I did it!  I wasn't wearing a candy coated plastic bathroom mirror smile.  In reality the conversation is based on learning how to face that moment when incredible amounts of creative energy are met with silence.  Before actuality sets in your heart and brain are already racing to figure out how something so beautiful can become absolutely nothing.  A lot of creative people deal with this daily.  Pretty close to everyone of them don't talk about it at work or around their circle of friends.  I've heard it so many times, "Oh the life of being an artist."  This is the very reason why I created the podcast Creativity The Addiction.  Whether you're busting tail with your art at home or inside the world of business a very powerful ray of something surges through you and so often you can't explain where the time went or how you even made it back.  Being locked in on your creative outlet is such an incredible journey.  Then it happens. All of sudden there's silence.   If we don't talk about it how do we expect to teach future thinkers, doers, planters and motivators to reach beyond that place of oh oh?  Where this podcast gets religious is when I mention that it would've been great to see the handwriting of Jesus during his daily birth and rebirth of thought and activation.  We've read about it by way of what others fell witness to.  And then I heard something while putting this episode together.